This sharepic I snatched from Facebook sums up the year 2024, and with like five weeks left to go, I am just looking forward to the moment the clock strikes midnight on NYE.
Granted, in the grand scheme of things and the state the world is in these days, I am rather off well. But for me, personally, it was a bit of a tough year. Yes, there were amazing moments, I shall not deny that. However, 2024 brought me down to my knees in more way than one. My mental health was all over the goddamn place, and I’ve also been having additional (physical) health issues for a year now which don’t seem to get any better.
On the contrary.
A couple of weeks ago, I had to make a decision about certain activities of mine, and that is that I will have to step away from going to gigs for the time being. And until we know what is going on that causes all the additional health issues and there’s some kind of remedy for that. I will talk about that in a separate entry, so please be patient with my ass here.
There were painful losses, as well as gains (some even out of those losses). People showing their true colors. Disappointments that broke parts within me I didn’t know I had. Setbacks. Comebacks (well, kinda). Lessons learned. Happy moments. Tears shed. Skyrocketing anxiety. Total WTAF!? moments (US elections, for example). Things I could’ve clearly done without (like a monster flare-up at the end of last month). Things I would have loved to be able to enjoy more or for a longer time.
And everything in between.
Also, I was contemplating life a lot this year. Asking myself what could have been had I made some decisions in a different way. Could I have prevented certain things like the burnout and my subsequent breakdown? All that. Alas, I obviously cannot change anything about that anymore, but I also learned from it – and that is to listen to my body. Which is also why I am stepping away from attending concerts. My body isn’t in it at this point anymore. Sad but true. Breaks my heart, but right now, there is not much I can do about it. *sigh*
Did 2024 break me? No. But I was hanging by a very thin thread at times. It taught me several lessons as well. So as shitty as it was for me personally, I also gained some (valuable) insights.
Here’s hoping that the plans I have for 2025 will work out. At least some of them.
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pic: found on FB
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